You don't know what you did for me, I was all alone, I was nearly gone...

It's been a while. Not much has happened and yet so much has.

I'm still working on 3 different jobs. Starting to get to me slowly but nothing too bad. I can take it - if only there were less bad surprises. If I'm lucky the worst will be over by the end of September.

In a way my life has changes a lot lately. No wait... not my life... We have changed. What we have has changed. All in the right direction =)

Minute by minute I know that this is it. He is the one. I honestly can't imagine my life without him any more. Well I've felt like that for about 3 years now but the feeling has gotten even stronger lately. I wasn't even sure it was possible.

Almost every night we spend hours on Skype. If he's not working... we carry on after I've had some hours of sleep. There is nothing better than waking up to his voice. It gives me so much energy for the day. No wonder I can go on and on without hardly ever sleeping these days. Sleep IS overrated. It's sweet how he feels so very guilty for me not getting enough sleep. Well... let's be completely honest here... I do stay up late because of him and I do wake up insanely early just to hear his voice. To hear him laugh. But that is what I want to do.

It's so wonderful to hear him laugh again. It's been a while since I heard him do that. It makes me feel special when he tells me I'm the one to blame for it.

I am glad he trusts me enough to open up about issues he had problems talking about earlier. I'm not there to push. We have all the time in the world.

I love the fact that he is not afraid to talk about his fears concerning us. It's amazing how by talking about them he voices my own fears and at the same time assures me everything will work out great, even though these are his own fears as well.

I don't know how but he can take away my insecurities just by telling me I'm beautiful and that he likes me just the way I am. And I believe him. How can I not? I know that what he says is what he thinks and truely believes.

We talked about our bubbles again this morning. It feels so great that our bubbles have finally emerged into one. We have a beautiful and colorful bubble we now share and we don't care if other's don't understand what's going on in that bubble of ours. It's our own little world.

It's amazing how we can both just fall silent during the call and we don't feel uncomfortable about it. We can just stay that way... listening the other one breathe.

I just love his teasing. Never fails to make me laugh. I love how we can start telling a story carrying it on so far that we can barely seperate the reality and fiction. Everything the other one says, makes total sense to the other!

Even though I've told him several times... I don't think he knows exactly what he has done for me. I don't think he knows that he has saved me.... from myself.

Thanks to him I am starting to grasp the idea of love and true happiness.... It feels amazing!