So what has brought me back to my poor neglected blog? What usually brings me here... love, sadness, guilt and regret, longing and all those other thoughts and feelings within me.
I am sad. For quite a few reasons really. Firstly - I`m ill. Haven`t been this ill for at least a year. I hate being ill. I hate having to go to the doctor. I hate taking pills. I hate not having You here taking care of me and cooking me chicken soup :)
I am sad. For it seems like I`ve lost my best friend. I know she says I haven`t. Still, not having her around for whatever reason is difficult. I feel like I`ve been in this situation with someone else before. However, I don`t want this to end the same way. I hope she`ll be back soon.
I feel guilt and regret. I feel very bad for not taking time for certain people in my life. It seriously is nothing personal. It`s just me growing old I guess. Feeling my life stand still and slipping away at the same time. I do feel like I`m hiding more and more away in my shell, knowing it will only make things worse. Yet I can`t seem to get myself out of the house like I used to. As if it would make it any better I`ve told you all why I am the way I am and I do know you don`t hold it against me... still I feel guilty...
I am missing You! I miss You always saying right things at the right moments. I miss You calling me emo and making up silly poems to cheer me up :) I miss Your voice sending pleasent shivers down my spine. I miss You trying hard to understand my moods. I miss You giving me silly nicknames. I miss You never really losing Your temper when reasoning with me. I miss our "fights" ending with me just sticking my tounge out at You, making You laugh. I miss Your laugh. I miss being so very ghay with You (Barrowman and all that) :) I miss You in so many ways... and we haven`t been able to talk in what? 2 days? See how hooked on You I am??
Oh and I am in love. With You obviously... but also in a movie. There aren`t that many movies that I can say I`m in love with but "Were the world mine" is definately one. So why fall in love with a movie? Well... it`s ghay! It`s half musical and oh is the music just heavenly. It`s sort of an intepretation of Shakespeare`s "Midsummer Night`s Dream", which just so happens to be my favourite play by the man. The cast is just amazing. It`s all just fabulous!!!
Who knew that mixing magnificient music with Shakespeare`s gorgeous words you could get something like this (and yes I know it`s ghay... I told you so!!):
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