I've got a date with my insomnia...

Insomnia... that's what has been bothering me for the last few days... I don't know how much longer I can carry on like this.

Those few who care are getting really worried. I don't blame them. Hell, I'M getting worried.

I feel like something or someone has invaded my body and mind... I don't have control over myself. I feel totally lost and trapped and I don't know how to get out of this situation. I don't like being this way.

I'm sorry! I don't want you to worry, I really don't. I am sorry for being this moody and restless. I am sorry I am not my usual self.

I don't know what it is that really bothers me. I'm not sure if it is the past. Could it be how things are right now? Am I thinking too hard about the future? I have no idea. I managed to name one issue... was it the right one that just slipped out 'cos I'm so tired? Was it just the easiest deception for the real issue? I have no clue. It drives me crazy!!!!

I'm sorry, Monkey, for being so difficult this week. It will pass. I know you're right, everything will be alright! I believe in you and I believe in us... You're the one who still keeps me sane... I love you! Just bare with me, please!