Baby, with your education, you can come up with a better Dear John than that...

Last night someone wrote on my Facebook wall suggesting that my blog here should be called "Dear John letter". I guess he's right :) I'm not gonna change it though, however, I think I will try to write all of the following blogs in that manner from now on. (Thank You for the amazingly lovely thought, Rommy! :) )

Starting now :P - Major rant alert!!!

Dear Johnny,

Where do I start... so much to tell you... or then again maybe not... maybe I'm just bored out of my mind :P

Been trying to look extra busy today at work even thought there isn't much to do. The looking busy act doesn't work anymore though 'cos now all of us are just sitting, reading papers and what not.

I hate the fact that I'm basically just wasting my oh so valuable time here. When there's nothing to do I could do something productive at least for myself. One of the oldies told me the other day "we are not allowed to do handicraft when at work". But we are allowed to read newspapers and gossip mags all day long??? Kinda ironic innit?

I could be at home making those cool beaded beads I learned to make 2 days ago, or stitch dons of more cards, or start with pimping that knitty thingy for Liisu or finish knitting the hat and sewing that pink baby dress... but noooooooo!!! I have to sit here doing nothing besides fuming inside and finding more and more new ideas I could do instead of wasting all this time.

Last night I finished work at 7pm and when I got home it felt so empty despite the unladylike

Lady being there. Haven't been home alone in a while and it felt so odd and cold. Well it was freezing in the livingroom and I was sitting there wrapped in a blanket beading :P

The news about your free day being taken away suck :( I was getting so excited (and also bit scared - you know why) about it already. Now I guess we have to wait 'til Tuesday - unless they change their mind again...

Have I told you enough that I'm happy for you :) I do hope that it will last :) And we shouldn't worry about what's gonna happen... not just yet... we'll think about that on Tuesday, yeah? :) See? I'm keeping the faith just like you told me to and haven't turned back to emo yet :P

Oh wait... today is Thursday? That means Ray's ne vlogs and another =3 episode - excellent. Ray is just amazing with his =3 and his vlogs of course. I love the way he presents goofy humor but then again stays very sophisticated when doing it, not going along with the crap people want him to do. He's totally my hero when it comes to "internet trolls" as he calles them. Meaning the ones who go around commenting videos and people with epic expressions such as [apply troll voice here] "this is so fake and gay", "gay fag is gay" or "stop being so f*cking adopted all the f*cking time". To get some overview of what's going around in Youtube you should definately check out =3 and also Ray's personal vlog Breaking NYC.

Thanks to Rommy's comment about my blog, I went back to my old blog on MySpace... Oh the memories... it's been over 3 years now... weird. I'm still sad you deleted you account before I could retrieve your first letters. But reading those first postings made me quite nostalgic. I was awfully emo back then, wasn't I? ... well in the inside anyways... And you've changed all that. I didn't send you this song without a reason. It says it all :)

I was broken alone,

There were pieces of me

You saved me

The search was sweet

The piece of the puzzle,

The end of my troubles

When you found me

[.......]

You don't know what you did for me

I was all alone, I was nearly gone

You don't know when you carried me

Took my broken bones and put them back together.

Ok, ok... enough with the memories :P Hopefully I'll see you tonight... if not... I love you!! :)