We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world...

Only 2 more days 'til the truth... that is if nothing changes. Hah! Nothing changes... Everything is about to change one way or another and we are about to find out how exactly the changes will strike. 2 more days. That is tomorrow evening... 2 more days...

Yes, I'm scared out of my mind. Funny! I wasn't until now. I wonder why... Did I know unconciously that it wasn't the right to be scared? Did I know we'll have to wait this long? Did I hope our time management will improve before the truth is revealed?? I have no idea...

I'm terrified. Not because of us because I believe in us. I know we'll get through anything when we try. I am scared for you though. Scared that you'll be taken over by the guilt again... I am scared that you will be thorn between two roads... I'm terrified and I will tell you so tomorrow... I know you'll understand. I know you're scared just the same.

If you ask be whether I have decided... the answer is yes... and no. I've made one - the main decision long ago and you know what it is. Still, I haven't decided about the other thing. We'll see how I react. Don't be too upset if I hardly say anything, please.

I've dreamt about the possible outcomes every night. About both possible outcomes. It's driving me mad. Being in the dark I mean. If we knew, we would know which way to go. But right now... we're standing still. Apart. Alone. Scared.

I want it to be tomorrow. I want it to be over. It's been too long. I want us to be like we used to be.