Sorry to dissapoint, girls, but I'm back in black, and needless to say, I'm in a mood.

This week has been pleasantly hectic. Haven't really had the time to feel down or emo. It's been bit sad and lonely 'cos Liisu's been at the farm. But there has been so much to do. I've been doing a bit of cleaning but mainly all the activities evolve around the upcoming birthday.

Last night I spent at Janne and Siim's place. We had to do the baking for Friday and allow me to say we did damn well :) The baking didn't take too long so most of the evening was spent behind a cup of tea chatting. It was a lovely evening. And I also delivered Janne's birthday gifts that she can finish by herself :)

So today it's her day. It's so cool to see her desk right now filled with colorful tulips. It's like she's sitting in the middle of a spring garden :)

Tomorrow we'll be celebrating our birthdays at work with the food and cake. Will be a fun day mainly 'cos it will be the last day before my vacation. 2 weeks away from this hellhole.

Remember the second thing I did? Yes that one. I got the answer, and it was a No! There goes my change of a life change. I have to stay here for a bit longer. I hope it works the way I had first planned but we'll see. Right now I do feel a bit doubtful but forcing myself to keep the faith and think positive. Still it feels like it's gonna be the saddest birthday I've ever had. Even sadder than the one I spent all alone back in the days.

I should be happy though for having all these sweet people around me. Sometimes it's just not enough.

Sorry, Time to stop emoing....