It might all be gone tomorrow...

Monday's got a beautiful baby

And Wednesday's child can never win

Little Saturday will work till he's crazy

But Friday's child was born to give

(Friday's Child by Will Young)

Will is so right about this. Monday's baby is beautiful and Little Saturday will work hard, Friday's child was born to give and I'm sorry honey but so it seems that Wednesday's child just can't win... But what about Sunday??? Looking at myself and my life so far... I'd say Sunday's baby was born to dream and idealize and build magical castles in her mind and still she knows they will become to life only with magic. I guess that magic was given to someone else. I wish it had been given to Friday's child 'cos he was after all born to give. I need that magic so bad right now because these wonderful dreams I have just need to come to life. They are too beautiful to be wasted. Then again it might be a wishful thinking only 'cos it just so happens that I'm in love with a Wednesday's child and he just can't win... Why does it have to be so damn complicated all the time?

I like it simple. Just like the week so far has been - Quiet. Simple. Almost perfect. There's only one thing missing - you!

So what have I been doing these past few days... I've been at the farm to start with. The smell of spring in the warm breeze that rushes through the windows makes me feel alive. And then I look outside expectedly and all I see is snow... it gets me down again. But I've found what keeps me going - playing housewife. I'm cooking and baking, and sewing and stitching and repairing stuff. This is what I wanna do for the rest of my life. I know it's a bold statement but it's true. Climbing up the career ladder or going out clubbing is so not for me. I want to be a wife, a mom. I want to have a house with a big garden and pets (starting with a dog and finishing with lizards). I want to have all that with you by my side.

I hope that whoever possesses the magic will see how desperately I need it, how desperately I want all that!

It's 1.30 AM. I think I'm done with the baking for today. It will all be gone tomorrow anyway....